I’m working on changing my cognitions. I’ve been down for a while since my test, and I’m not sure why. Maybe I’m just not used to not having a million things to do, although I still have quite a few. Either way, I’ve been dreading going to work every day, when I used to be generally excited about it.
So I’m working on reinterpreting everything positively. I’m usually optimistic, so it’s not as hard as it could be. It’s a matter of remembering how much I like doing all the things I do at work, even if I might rather be hiking or reading. This week I get to work directly with patients and finish up a grant. It’s exciting and interesting. I have to remember that rather than the fact that I would prefer having more control over my own time. I love my job, and over the past couple weeks, I’ve forgotten that, and it hasn’t been good for me. I need to remember.